I'm never alone.

I feel like I'm alone all the time. I always get the feeling that I should be driving my car off a cliff. I want to just roll the car into traffic and snap my neck and die. I wouldn't have to worry about losing sleep or dealing with work or going to grad school or figuring out life. I could just be dead.

That doesn't seem like a normal thought process to have. I mean. ... Never.

I'm not happy. I never have been. There is always something else I should be doing. Or somewhere I should or someone I should call...yet I never do. I sit at home alone. I'm a hermit by nature. I don't socialize and I try to feel bad about it but I just can't.